This is what emotional work can look like!
This past couple days has been so interesting, as I wrestle with my body’s terror about being the center of attention and knee-jerk reactions to staying present in situations where resources are coming from others to me, specifically. It’s really stretching my mind and my understanding and challenges the wiring of my brain. Not always fun, and not always comfortable, but always held in love and gentleness and so much kindness and creativity.
Hope you like my photo collection! Watch for more photos from the shoot which will be appearing on Facebook and other forms of social media over the next couple months. They will make up the launch for Estar En Mi Cuerpo, but they will be professional photographs by Kitzia, who I am sure you are going to love. For those of you who don’t know, Estar En Mi Cuerpo is the Spanish title for Being In My Body, What You Might Not Have Known About Trauma, Dissociation, & The Brain. The other women in the photos are so dear to my heart – my translator, Mariana and her sister, Margarita.
Margarita, setting the tone for Day 1
Mariana, Shoot Director, Translator and Publisher
Kitzia, Mariana, Margarita, at Bicycle Snack Station
Bicycle wheel table and reading the coffee grounds
Juice and coffee stop
Kitzia loves this pup
Photograph the photographer – What a love
It just doesn’t get any sweeter than this.
Aren’t I photogenic?
The Crew – Day 2
I was at Unity Center in Portland on New Year’s Eve – The last day of 2017. These two weeks I have been visiting my sister Trina and her family has been such a blessing, and stepping into the Unity Center here I immediately felt the warmth, beauty, inspiration, and safety that I’ve always felt at the Unity Center back in Columbia Missouri. I jotted down some notes that the speaker was sharing, and I’ll record them here, for you to see if you’re interested…and for my own future reference.
Moving into this new year, I am being asked to expand. Do I believe that real change is possible? This year is about breaking free of the prison of my old programming, my beliefs, my limitations. I am being supported in living as if the chains that have held me are breaking and falling away.
I am so much larger than my doubts and fears.
There is so much more for me to do.
I am at the very brink of finding a larger picture of myself and my world.
What would I like to feel in 2018?
Here I am. Move through me, Spirit.
Since that service on Sunday, I have been writing short paragraphs in my journal that begin like this: I am thinking about how it will feel when/to…..
And each paragraph gives a sweet, detailed snapshot into an aspect of my new life. Spend some time doing this. Take time to savor and review and revise your writings for the next week or so, noticing how it feels when you imagine your new, desired life.
Give it a try! Take a chance; get clear on what you want more of and ask for it!
I am thinking about how it will feel when/to…..
(Making adjustments based on what I desire moving forward)
I choose to address my compulsions directly, and I open to guidance about how this is gracefully done.
It is safe to have plenty of time. I can have plenty of time and not get derailed in anything even close to The Devil’s Workshop. (Unless, of course, the devil is a fine playmate.)
True abundance does not always mean a full calendar, or having several things lined up to do.
My compulsions have served to keep me disconnected from my feelings. I now choose to shift my relationship with my feelings so that my natural tendency is to notice and feel them directly.
I have plenty of money and plenty of time simultaneously.
I do not have to have access to endless abundance to have simplicity and peace, though it sure seems like it could help, sometimes.
I am well supported in managing abundance so that it does not detract from the quality of my life.
I can be trusted with free, unstructured time. I am allowed to play and relax. Playing and relaxing help me reach my goals, effortlessly.
I step up and do what is needed to make wise decisions that help me feel better about my future. I own my power. I am in charge of my life.
My values and integrity stay intact as I become a conduit of great financial flow.
I release any connection between busy-ness and righteousness. That is utter nonsense.
As a fully resourced person I make a bigger impact in the world.
I welcome the abundance that is already mine, and I am so grateful!
Thank you! And so it is!
Photo borrowed from Laughing Frog Gardens. Check it out here.