The past several weeks, since I left Mexico in June, have been rather intense but 100% blessed and good. Maybe I should just say that change is in the air, and I am going full steam in that direction. I have been in Kalispell Montana, re-taking EMDR 1&2. I stayed 6 days with a family who put me up in their pop-up camper, out back, took me in as family, shuttled me to and from class, and made sure I got a chance to visit Glacier National Forest and connect with their community in Kalispell. Prior to completing this course, post re-training was a big blank, because I knew not what training would be like, or how these people would feel to me, or what the next steps would be. I have a better idea of that now, and all lights seem to be green for me as I move forward. As I have time to attend to it, I plan to complete my consultant status, which will involve building more of a professional relationship with the trainer, Roy Kiessling, and then communicating with him that I am interested in becoming a trainer (which I already have, but he’s a very busy guy and the time has to be right, and there are still things I need to do before I’m ready). I absolutely love his approach, his style, and the content and organization of his training. It is as different as night and day when compared to Francine Shapiro’s approach, and I heard so many stories from the other trainers about how it had also been difficult for them to feel supported and/or taken in by the larger, overarching EMDR organization given the relative rigidity and sterile feel of Shapiro’s style.
Sooooo, I will finish out my visit in Missouri, which will include my daughter’s and granddaughter’s birthday, watching my daughter and her partner as they turn their school bus into a tiny home that they will live in this winter, and as they move equipment and raw materials into some kind of a studio space in downtown Columbia; walk through my other daughter’s house since she has already left for Cyprus, and is gallivanting around in Portugal and will soon be in Morocco and Rome before finding a place to live in Cyprus! I might squeeze some sessions in there, and some quality visits with family and people I consider friends. And then back to Mexico, where I am committed to doing at least a month of intensive Spanish lessons.
Although the printing of my book seems to be delayed, I’m not at all worried about it. There has just been so much movement in my life, all of which has been grace-filled and obviously in flow, that I know this timing is in divine order.
I envision my new life in which I am involved as a trainer in regular (maybe quarterly) trainings where I show up and teach and get paid by a well-run organization that takes care of the other myriad details. I envision myself having consultees on a regular basis, and becoming a better and even more effective EMDR therapist. I see myself feeling more and more comfortable in front of groups, knowing that I will have exactly the right words and experience, and that my clients and students will be enriched by this amazing modality, and grateful and empowered.
Whew. I gotta be honest, I will not be bored if I just have a day to sleep in, to read, and not have a single appointment. There are tons of details packed into this next three weeks, and I pledge to take it one day at a time. Grateful for the richness of life.
I received some really great EMDR therapy during training, from a young man who was attending as a student in our 5-day training. It was the most profound therapy I’ve ever had, and I’m still processing.
So at the moment I’m heading back to Columbia MO, where I will be for the next three weeks or so. My sister Tami Brunk, who was bit in the ear by a brown recluse spider is okay, but it’s been a difficult journey. She has had to postpone her travels to the Yucatan, where she is getting ready to launch a new phase of her life. My other sister, Tracy Barnett, will be headed back to Mexico about the same time I am. She’s babysitting my granddaughter while my daughter is packing all her stuff and getting out of her apartment before her lease is up in the next couple days. My daughter and granddaughter will be spending 10 days in Portland with my other sister, Trina Brunk.
Tracy, my mom and I went to visit my brother, and we stayed at his home from Thursday through Sunday morning right before I left for Montana. It was a priceless though intense several days, and we’re all glad, of course, to have had that opportunity to connect with him and his family. He’s great, as he tells it. His family is struggling. And there is a lot of grace and love in that home as he navigates these last days/weeks/months/years? of his life, living it all to the fullest with a Stage 4 Cancer Diagnosis (as of 3 years ago). We played some pinochle, we told some stories. Mom asked him for his advice on some things she needs to handle on the farm that my dad would have helped her with if he were still around. My step-nephew forged a blade out of a huge nail, and my brother was working on a vest of chain mail he was crafting with his step-son. Our being there, obviously, kept their family from having their normal intimate moments, and taxed my sister-in-law, and a big part of this visit was her coming to us for support in telling the rest of the family that overnights were not going to be possible anymore. Since we have such an enormous family, and lots of little ones, they have decided to protect their remaining days together “as if they were running a hospital,” as their pastor advised. The rest of the family will have to observe visiting hours and restrict their visits to day trips, and/or find accommodations nearby. The time they have left is truly precious, and should not be stressed by the work involved in hosting guests. We are all so grateful for her willingness to approach this in her own way, and to give us this opportunity to see Scott as he faces this stage of his life.
So it has been truly intense, with the son of my youngest sister having a coming of age ceremony and my youngest daughter having a going-away camping Kaboodle at my mother’s farm, a niece adjusting to life with a newly adopted infant and navigating all those legal processes, etc, etc, etc.
I am still a bit dizzy from all that. But absolutely grateful. This is what having a close-knit big family looks like. ? It can be exhausting at times, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I am wishing you a fun and fulfilling rest of your summer.
Te amo mucho,